I know I said I am not really feeling the holiday spirit yet so I decided to fake it until I do. Well, not exactly fake it as much as jump in and start thinking about it so that I start feeling it. Yes, that’s better. Fake it sounds so…anti-Queen of Chaos.
I am thankful that Leo still makes me laugh. I wasn’t laughing when he went to Tommy’s elementary school to drop off booklets that Tommy forgot. That sounds like he was doing me a big favor, doesn’t it. It would have been except that Tommy doesn’t go there anymore. He is in middle school this year. See, a week later and I am totally laughing. We were in Target and since my eyes are not what they used to be, I took out reading glasses and he started laughing and said, “Are you serious with that? What is happening to you?” I whined, “I know. I think I might be turning into Helen Keller.” He thought that was funny and then said, “Yeah, but you don’t have the nose thing.” I asked what the nose thing was and he answered, “You know…she couldn’t smell.” I laughed so hard I was crying. We stood in the laundry basket aisle of Target laughing like there was no one else in the store. I love when that happens.
I am thankful for the time I get to spend with my parents. I don’t always like where I live but the fact that it is ten minutes away from my parents’ house will keep me here for a long time. I am thankful that my dad goes to my kids’ games and that I get that time with him and that my mom is now retired so I get to spend time with her. I’m not good about calling but I cherish the time that my kids and I get them.
I can’t do a post without mentioning my sisters and my bff (both in RL and OL). No matter how busy life gets, we fall into the same easiness of our relationships. They ground me. They make me feel sane and I love them so much.
I am thankful for Leo’s job. I don’t like that he has been traveling so much but it allows me to stay at home with Gia. I am thankful that he doesn’t have a big commute and that sometimes I can meet him for lunch.
I am thankful for my kids’ teachers. Nico had a rough go in 6th grade and I was gearing up for the worst and have been pleasantly surprised. After going to their conferences, I really got a feel that most of their teachers know them. It’s amazing when you have teachers that love kids first and then love their subject matter. It seems that kids have a tougher time when they have teachers that teach because they love their subject matter first and then want to work with kids.
I am thankful for Nico’s affection. He’s almost 16 and he still comes home and hugs me hello. He still kisses me goodbye and for luck before a game. I am thankful that though he is frustrated with some obstacles and doesn’t know what he has a passion for other than sports, he said that it is important to him to get straight A’s.
I am thankful for Tommy’s old soul and his huge heart. When he loves, he loves big. He’s going to get his heart broken. Sixth grade girls don’t really “get” what a gentleman is. They don’t appreciate boys that open doors for them, throw out their lunch garbage or offer to carry their books to class for them. There is a girl out there that will appreciate it and to be honest, I’m pretty impressed that in the age of “me, me, me” he is thoughtful enough to think to do that. He reminds me so much of Leo. The night I met Leo, we went for a walk and he lifted me over a puddle. I mean, who does that?
I am thankful for Belle’s helpfulness. I would be lost without Belle. She is so thoughtful that sometimes she knows what I need help with even before I ask her. I am thankful for her thoughtfulness. Every night she makes me a cup of tea and asks if there is anything she can do for me. She is so wonderful with little kids, especially Gia. She just knows what to do. She’s going to make a great mom someday (a long, long, long time from now).
I am thankful for Gia’s love. No one loves me like Gia loves me. It’s sometimes suffocating and sometimes frustrating but it is the best feeling in the world to be loved as much as she loves me. When I go pick Gia up from school, she comes barreling at me smiling and yelling, “Mommy! You’re here!” She wraps me up in her little arms and acts like she hasn’t seen me for days. When Nico was little, I’d go to pick him up from school and he’d run the other way wanting to stay and play longer. With the twins, they had each other in class so me showing up was a little anticlimactic. I don’t remember any running toward me. I remember one of them seeing me and yelling for the other that it was time to go. I am thankful for those jumps in my arms.
I am going to be very thankful when the boys’ appointment is done next week and they tell us they are doing fine. It’s a big appointment so any prayers you can send our way would be great.
I am thankful that this was the year that I finally lost the baby weight.
I am thankful that Barnes and Noble is still open because it is my happy place.
I am thankful for my DVR (superficial, I know but I am).