I never thought I’d hear myself say, I dread the weekends but…I dread the weekends. I think that just when I’ll be able to enjoy them again, because the kids will all be in college, Gia will be at the age where I won’t be able to. You’re laughing at me, aren’t you?
I used to have the kids’ Halloween costumes picked out and bought months ago. Now, I have no idea what Tommy is going to be and I’m done giving Belle money for hers. I would have never been okay with a $50 costume and I am still not. I didn’t even put out my Halloween stuff this year. Is it wrong that I am just hoping it comes and goes quietly?
The last time I got the flu or was really, really sick, Rocco died. I know it was a coincidence and not related but when I got pregnant with Gia, I lived in fear of getting sick. I was never allowed to get a flu shot because I am allergic to chickens (I know…dumb allergy and really only allergic to feathers). The benefits of getting the flu shot when I was pregnant outweighed the risks so I got it and was fine. I got it last year and I was fine. I got it two days ago and not fine. I got sick. I was dizzy, I had a fever, my body felt like a truck hit it and I had a splitting headache that begged for me to sleep it off. However…I have Gia so no sleeping it off for me. She was the absolute sweetest. She kept rubbing my head and we sat in my bed watching a lot of Disney channel while she put hair bands on my fingers. She took a nap and I was able to sleep a little. I was in bed by 8:00 which hasn’t happened in forever. So the question is: was it the flu shot even though the doctors swear you can’t get the flu from it or did I catch something from the doctor’s office? Either way, it makes me want to never go to the doctor (which brings me back to square one with this issue).
So, I had a nightmare last night which I am sure was because I was sick but now it has me wondering what it means. First I was at the high school for some reason. I am not sure if I went to school or was a parent. I was trying to get out of the school to get to my ride or my car. I kept going around and around and ending up in the same place. I could see my car but I couldn’t get to it. There was a time limit and I could not figure it out. I started to panic and then suddenly, I was at Target (no analysis needed there…I am there too much) and putting a lot of winter stuff in the cart. Gia was sitting in the seat part of the cart. I got to the check out lines and they were all filled with other women with girls Gia’s age in their carts. I was directed to a short line and when I put stuff up on the belt thing, it wasn’t anything I had picked out. It was all too small and summer stuff. I kept giving it to the cashier and saying, “I changed my mind about this.” Then it dawned on me that I didn’t put any of that stuff in my cart. I looked and Gia looked like Gia but not really. I panicked and said, “This isn’t Gia.” The cashier asked me if I was sure and I saw that the toddler in my cart looked like Gia but had on a different coat and pierced ears. I started screaming that she wasn’t mine and frantically began searching for my Gia. Then I woke up.
What the Hell?
Do you still enjoy the weekends? Are you ready for Halloween? Have you ever had a bad reaction to the flu shot? Have any weird dreams lately?
I am a stay at home mom, married to my college sweetheart, Leo. We have four kids, Nico, Tommy, Isabella and Gia. We have a son, Rocco that is an angel in Heaven.
I”m no dream analyzer but I’d venture a guess and say that the going round in circles and not finding a way out, is a reflection of how you feel about day-to-day life, maybe? That you’re doing, doing, doing and not really getting anywhere?
As for the Target scene – well, maybe too much Target.
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I think you are so right about the doing and doing and not getting anywhere. As for Target, I am headed there right now.
I have felt that way about my weekends lately. I always start out happy and relaxed and then I just tread them and get upset that I’m not getting anything I wanted done. I’ve also had a few weird dreams here and there. Especially last week when I was sick. Feel better.
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I always have big plans to catch up and when it never happens, I am so bummed.
I have a 50/50 chance of getting sick with the flu shot. I have never gotten as sick as you described. I try to plan getting it so that in case I get sick that I don’t have any other commitments. I had it one year that in the time from when I got the shot to when I walked to the car,the achiness had already set in.
I did get just a little achy this year. I wonder if it depends on what they compose the shot of as to whether I react or not. Last year I really had a couple of rough days after the tetanus/whooping cough shot.
That’s how I felt this time. Right away something seemed off.
Having a mild, flu-like reaction to the vaccine is totally normal…this time I won’t smile when I say it like I did on stupid FB!
I have no clue about the dream, but I thinks dreams are often manifestations of how we are feeling…or side effects of cold & flu medicine! 
-Ashley
Hang in there my friend!
Ha! Maybe the flu shot, feeling sick and the dream are all related. Something else to blame on the flu shot.
This is why I don’t get the flu shot. I hope you’re feeling better!
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I’m pretty sure I won’t be getting it again.